The trouble of a "Silent Life"

 When I was a child, I thought that one day I would grow up and have all the things happening. I thought self-discovery was gonna be me exploring and learning while living my life to the fullest. Instead, I'm sitting at home continuously asking myself questions that may never get answered. The hardest part of it all though is the silence, basically the things that are not happening. Or perhaps the absence of people you thought you would have to support you. 

 In my most recent days I have become unmistakably aware of how much of life I'm NOT experiencing. I mean all your typical textbook things that you're supposed to do in your 20s. The thing is that I don't have the desire in my heart to make my life like the plot of every "new-age self-discovery" movie. The one where the main character finally leaves home and finally figures out their life has been a big lie. Where most of the things they learned in their childhood won't help them in reality. Yeah, that one, see I've gone past that part and I'm ready for the middle where they figure out who they really are. The part where the character walks away knowing their pathway ahead is what they were looking for all along.

Though it seems like I'm stuck in this time loop, repeating the same day again and again, and I know I'm not the only one that feels this way. I know this cause, despite my lack of outside social interaction, I am still very observant of people and society. From what I have observed and analyzed, it seems that a large population of society is affected by the result of living a "silent life". Generations have been torn apart because of the drastic difference of how people choose to experience life. See what happens in most cases, is that to live a desired life,  industries want younger generations to spend years of their life just to learn a trade. Not to participate or to actually contribute to the bigger picture, and if I have learned anything from experience and knowledge, the young adults don't want to wait to live life. I mean who does?? Seriously

So what happens? Younger generations get labeled as lazy and entitled. Mainstream media suggest that the problem continues because the younger generations are not willing to work their way to the top. You mean to tell me that just because I don't want to fight the battles my parents had to overcome, I'm less worthy of a happy life. I can't tell you how many times I've heard the lines, "When I was your age" or "Life is unfair" followed by non-comparable situations or unhelpful advice. Here's the thing, society is not oriented for the regular person to be able to embrace the fullness of life. In fact, it works in the opposite direction because somehow someone in some timeline convinced a whole population of people that in order to live freely you have to learn the algorithm of society and flow with it, otherwise you will be caught in the tide. Well yeah, no I'm done with letting people convince me that is the only way to live and I'm guessing if you're reading this you're fed up too.

So what do we do?? Honestly learn to live openly and expressively until it becomes a norm of society. Before you decide that is a no go, let me explain what I mean by that. See the problem is that we let ourselves be silenced by the obstructions of freedom and happiness. No more " Silent life." If you have a talent, interest, or gift, explore it. If you like art, then make art. If you want to be a writer, start writing. Stop letting a society that wasn't built in your favor decide how you live your life. Start creating things in your life you can appreciate. You're basically building your own foundation that is not compromised by the beliefs or flaws of others. This is what true self-discovery looks like, the ideal of what I thought was self-discovery before was basically the world getting the chance to define me. Tell me what I want, need, or desire. Start listening to your heart when it's pulling you towards a certain place or doing a certain thing. Get out of your mind, and live more into the passion of what your heart tells you. Once you've started doing that, then we can talk about step two... until then, remember you are the one who writes your story, the only version that really matters.

~ Your Dearest Friend